a conversation with thedevilzmindsky:

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MUSIC&THE OCCULT:

I THINK WHAT YOU DO AS A POET OR WRITER IS YOU SORT OF TAKE THE WORLD AND YOUR EXPERIENCES AND WHAT YOU SEE AROUND YOU AND YOU DISTILL IT:ESPECIALLY IN WRITING POETRY OR LYRICS BECAUSE IT'S SUCH A METICULOUS FORM,YOU KNOW(?),AND YOU ONLY WRITE WHAT WORDS ARE NECESSARY TO GET ACROSS THE IDEAS OR FEELINGS YOU WANT TO GET ACROSS AND SOMETHING MORE... SO IT'S INTERESTING THE PROCESS OF EDITING,CUTTING DOWN AND BUILDING BACK UP AND PAIRING BACK DOWN TO THE POINT WHERE IT BECOMES A VERY POTENT SOLUTION AND REALITY BECOMES A LUCID EPIPHANY. I GET DEEP INTO RHYMING STRUCTURES,IT'S GOTTEN PRETTY OUT OF HAND BUT IN A GOOD WAY. I HAVEN'T STUDIED RHYME STRUCTURES IN SCHOOL BUT GREW UP LISTENING TO ALL KINDS OF RAP MUSIC AND ALL DIFFERENT PEOPLE'S STYLES AND HOW THEY DO WHAT THEY DO AND THEN YOU JUST START TOYING WITH THINGS,YOU START SEEING IF YOU CAN RHYME EVERY SYLLABLE IN THIS LINE WITH THE NEXT ONE IN A COUPLET,EVERY SYLLABLE RHYMES OR DIFFERENT THINGS LIKE THAT AND SEEING HOW IT CONNECTS WITH THE CONTENT AND THAT'S WHEN IT REALLY GETS INTERESTING,WHEN THE RHYME STRUCTURE AND/OR MELODY MARRIES WITH THE CONTENT WELL,THAT'S WHEN MUSIC IS AT ITS BEST! TO BE HONEST,I LIVE AN EXTREMELY ISOLATED LIFESTYLE. I DON'T HAVE MANY FRIENDS,THE ONLY FRIENDS I DO HAVE ARE MOSTLY THE PEOPLE I MOSTLY WORK WITH PRETTY MUCH. I WORK ALL THE TIME. I LIVE A SAD(-ASS) EXISTENCE OF ISOLATION. I'VE ENDED UP OCCUPYING MYSELF WITH THESE SELF ABSORBED MATTERS OF MAKING RECORDS AND WRITING THESE SHITTY RAP SONGS.. SO THAT'S KINDA WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. I'M NOT SUPER HAPPY ABOUT IT AND IT'S NOT LIKE SOMEDAY I EXPECT THINGS TO CHANGE BUT THAT'S WHAT I'VE FALLEN INTO,SO HOPEFULLY I'LL DIG MYSELF OUT OF THIS/THAT... WELL,YOU KNOW I DO LIKE THE DIRTY SHIT AND GRUNGE SCATHED TEXTURE ON ME REKORDS BUT IT'S NOT LIKE I WAS INTENTIONALLY TRYING TO MAKE THINGS LO-FI,IT'S JUST WHAT I HAVE AT HAND AND I JUST DO WHAT I CAN WITH WHAT I HAVE AND REGARDLESS,THERE'S A CERTAIN SOUND THAT WOULD ALWAYS COME OUT THAT I KNEW WAS ME(!). WHETHER IT WAS GOOD OR BAD OR WHATEVER,THERE'S ALWAYS A SENSE OF SATISFACTION KNOWING THAT WHAT IS COMING OUT IS A REAL HOLISTIC REPRESENTATION OF MY IDEAS,FEELINGS(?), THOUGHTS,THEMES,CONCEPTS,INTERESTS AND VOICE AS UNKEMPT OR AS TACKY AS A LOT OF IT MAY BE... IT'S STILL ME(!). I HAVE MAJOR HEALTH PROBLEMS AND SOMETIMES PARTYING AND BULLSHIT CAN EXACERBATE THAT IN A MAJOR WAY. MY PHYSICAL AFFECTS MY MENTAL AND MY MENTAL AFFECTS MY PHYSICAL AND I CAN ALSO GO INTO A DOWNWARD SPIRAL AND ACT LIKE A FUCKING MANIAC(!!),AND THAT DOES HAPPEN YOU KNOW. BUT WHEN THINGS ARE GOING WELL- WHEN I'M HEALTHY:I LOVE TRAVELLING,SEEING NEW PLACES AND PEOPLE AND STUFF. SO IT JUST ALL DEPENDS ON HOW I'M TREATING MYSELF WHILE OUT THERE... ''AM I EATING RIGHT,AM I SLLEPING ENOUGH??'' YOU KNOW,THAT KINDA STUFF,THAT MAY SOUND TRIVIAL BUT FOR SOMEBODY LIKE ME,IT MAKES A HUGE DIFFERENCE WHETHER I'M HEALTHY OR NOT AND MAKES A HUGE DIFFERENCE AS TO WHETHER I'M ENJOYING LIFE OR NOT. IT CAN BE TOUGH DOING WHAT I DO BUT IT'S A CURSED BLESSING. -sirmainlyhopkins, thedevilzmindsky!